Don’t Let Me Down

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve never been one to handle disappointment well. I think most people would agree that I’m a pretty easygoing person and I don’t ask for much; however, if someone tells me they’re going to do something and doesn’t follow through or lets me down in any way, the pain runs deep.

Being man of your word and being reliable are everything to me.

My first recollection of the pain of disappointment happened back in high school, when my crush cancelled a trip to Six Flags because it was snowing outside. These days, you couldn’t pay me to go Six Flags in Chicago’s sub-arctic winter temperatures, but at the time, this was not only a huge letdown—it hurt me to my core.

This memory was triggered on my most recent trip to Chicago; now a grown woman, I’m still not any better at handling disappointment.

On a previous trip, back in July, while I was visiting my family in Chicago, I decided to take a peek on Tinder. I was only in town for three days and didn’t have time to meet anyone in person, but since I write dating columns, I was curious to see what the app was about; and at the time, I hadn’t wanted to use Tinder where I live in Los Angeles, because my calendar was already pretty full back at home. So, as one of my matches joked, I was basically a tease, but I did keep in touch with some of the guys I was talking to that weekend.

One guy in particular, let’s call him Jake, was disappointed that we weren’t able to meet in person that weekend, so he offered to buy me a plane ticket to Chicago so we would get to spend some time together. I wasn’t sure at first–it seemed a little weird to fly halfway across the country for a Tinder date. However, since I was able to stay with my parents, I decided I was up for the adventure and planned the trip so I would be in town to party with my niece on her seventh birthday.

While we were looking at flights, I asked Jake to get me a ticket to fly into Midway Airport, which is just minutes away from my parents’ house on the Southwest side of Chicago, explaining that my mom doesn’t like to drive on the freeway. However, like a true gent, Jake told me that he wanted to be the one to pick me up and ended up buying me a ticket to O’Hare Airport, which is north of the city.

The day of my flight, as I was boarding the plane in Los Angeles, Jake texted me telling me he wouldn’t be able to pick me up but was kind enough to give me the login and password to his Uber account to use when I landed in Chicago. I felt a wave of disappointment rush over me, like a little girl whose parents forgot to pick her up at school (although I had parents who were ALWAYS there to pick me up). I understand that things come up, and I do appreciate Jake taking care of the Uber, but this just did not sound like the guy I had been talking to for the past two months—the guy who couldn’t wait to breathe the same air as me.

In case I sound like a total diva, I do want to mention that had the plan been for me to Uber from the beginning, I wouldn’t have minded. Or had he bought me a ticket to Midway, where my parents would have picked me up, I wouldn’t have minded that either. To be honest, I probably wouldn’t have minded the change of plans if I had even met him before, but there had been such a build-up to this moment; so for him to tell me he would pick me up and then not follow through, not only made a poor first impression, it made my heart sink.

As I would find out the next evening, after he kept me waiting for our dinner date longer than I care to admit, Jake suffered from extreme anxiety (and uncontrollable sweating) and was stalling because he was petrified to meet me in person. He also had a leg injury that he was extremely self-conscious about. So instead of judging him as thoughtless and inconsiderate, I actually felt compassion for the guy and tried to make the most of the night, even though I knew immediately that he wasn’t the one for me.

What Jake didn’t know is that I’m not the kind of girl who would have liked him any less because he had a bad leg. I’d honestly rather date a guy with no legs who showed up to get me at the airport on time. Then I could brag to all my girlfriends, “My date was so sweet. He didn’t even have legs, but he came to the airport to pick me up—holding roses!”

As I arrived at O’Hare, feeling let down, not knowing my way around and not knowing whether Uber even comes to the airport, I couldn’t help but think of my long-term ex-boyfriend and how every time he picked me up at the airport, he went above and beyond. He didn’t drive around in circles and have me jump in the car like most people do. Always a class act and never one to disappoint, my ex would actually park his car and stand at the bottom of the escalator at LAX—that’s as close as TSA would allow him to get! And, yes, he was always holding roses.

There’s a lot to be said about having someone you know you can count on, someone who will never let you down.

My heart hadn’t felt the pitter-patter of uncertainty since last April, when I had invited the guy I was seeing (who lived in another state) to Myrtle Beach to meet my family. He and I had gone over dates and flight times, so I assumed he had gotten his plane ticket. However, a couple days before the trip, he called, stressed out, telling me that tickets were now over a thousand dollars. Although I was shocked he hadn’t bought his ticket a month earlier when it was more reasonably priced, I told him I was disappointed but understood if the tickets were too expensive. We hung up with him sounding like he wasn’t going to come, which would have been completely embarrassing for me, seeing as I hadn’t introduced anyone to my family in years. To my surprise, he quickly called back saying, “I must love you because I just bought a $1200 ticket to Myrtle Beach.” And I loved him for coming through for me.

But the reality is, I don’t ever want that sinking feeling or my heart racing, wondering, “Will he or won’t he?” I want the kind of guy who I know will be standing at the bottom of the airport escalator with roses.

So guys, it may be snowing outside, your legs might not work, and the plane tickets might cost thousands of dollars, but take it from me, you don’t want to let your girl down♥





Spirit Junkie Masterclass Has Gone Digital!

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As many of you may know, last year I attended Gabrielle Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass in NYC. It was a life-changing, inspiring event and I am so proud to be a part of the Spirit Junkie Community. Many graduates went on to publish books, create digital courses, and lead retreats and workshops all over the world. This one-of-a-kind training sparked some serious miracles–in me and so many others!

Well, I have some exciting news for you—the Spirit Junkie Masterclass is now available online!

In the 8-module Spirit Junkie Masterclass Digital course, you will:

  • Get step-by-step guidance on how to establish and grow your spiritual business, manifest media for your message and make money doing what you love.
  • Learn how to turn your blog into a business, publish a life-changing book, lead a transformational talk and create digital courses so that you can create passive revenue for your great work.
  • Become eligible to join Gabrielle’s elite, international referral network. When you receive your Level 1 certification you become eligible to attend the Level 2 course, where you can apply to become a Gabrielle Bernstein coach.
  • Join 2 live Q&A calls with Gabby throughout the 8-module training.
  • Have access to an always-fresh, forever relevant program that you can take at your own pace and revisit for a lifetime.
  • Experience the energy and enthusiasm from the live training in the comfort of your own home. Have the option to learn via video, audio, or typed transcripts — whichever format fits your learning style best.

For the next few days Gabby offering a big introductory discount and an amazing bonus that expires on October 9th!

In addition to Gabby’s bonus, I will be offering the following gifts (valued at $860) when you sign up at this link:

One Free Month of Life Coaching

♥ Four 60-minute Sessions

♥ Unlimited Email Support

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If you’re ready to make miracles happen in your life, your business and the world, then become a Spirit Junkie Masterclass leader!


I’m a proud affiliate of Gabrielle Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass Digital training. I love this course and I believe in the mission behind the work. As an affiliate I may earn a referral fee if you take the course from my recommendation.

How to Get Your Message Out into the World

There’s no one better to teach how to get your message out into the world than my friend Gabrielle Bernstein. Gabby has sat next to Oprah and Dr. Oz. She’s been featured in Elle, Cosmo, the New York Times. In the last video of her free training series, Gabby discusses how important it is to be moved by your own message. If your message moves you, it is sure to move others as well.

While getting your message out there, it is important to be in the energy of sharing and not selling. Take me, for example; I am first and foremost a storyteller. When I began life coaching and wanted to promote my services, like many of my spirit junkie sisters, I included rates and buttons to click to set up an appointment. However, promoting myself in that way just wasn’t me. I wanted people to enjoy my stories and not feel like I was trying to sell them something. So, I decided to delete anything that felt sales-y in order to direct the attention back to my blog; I figured if someone happened to like what I was saying and wanted private coaching, they were welcome to send me a message through the contact button. Someday this might change, but it feels right to me now.

Another important point Gabby makes is that there is enough to go around. Don’t let the fact that someone else is already doing it hold you back! Everyone has their own unique experiences and stories, so don’t get caught up in comparing yourself to others. Remember, your strength is that no one is you!

I invite you to watch the last video in this free series:

Gabrielle Bernstein has been named “a new thought leader” by Oprah Winfrey. She appears regularly as an expert on The Dr. Oz show and was named “a new role model” by the New York Times. Gabrielle is the New York Times best-selling author of the books May Cause Miracles and Miracles Now. Her other titles include Add More ~ing to Your Life and Spirit Junkie.

3 Common Mistakes that Block Your Success

In this video, Gabby discusses the three most common blocks to running a spiritual business. The first block is that people feel like it is not spiritual to ask for money in exchange for their work. Gabby debunks this theory, explaining how money is simply energy. You are providing a service and giving your energy, so in turn, you deserve to be compensated. Plus, you need to be supported so you can continue to do your great work, which is of high value and service to others.

Many of us have had pay our dues and work for free in the beginning. I wrote for free for years, contributing to magazines and blogs to build a audience and a resume before I started getting offered paying jobs. After my life coaching class, I began coaching all my friends for practice. If anyone had a problem, I would listen and talk to them for hours. Most recently, I became certified as an Akashic reader. We were instructed to practice for thirty days until we accept payment for our services. You will intuitively know when the time has come to own your spiritual work as a profession.

The second common block is people aren’t sure how to transition from their current job to their spiritual work. Gabby advises us to go slowly and not to be afraid of the transition period. Also, she encourages us to “be the light” in whatever profession we are currently in. Many of the girls I graduated Spirit Junkie Masterclass with have completely left their “day” jobs. Others, like me, have multiple profit centers. I am a currently a writer, copy editor, Pilates instructor, life coach, and now, Aksahic reader. I enjoy variety and having multiple sources of income.

Lastly, people are uncomfortable promoting their great work. This is something I struggle with—the last thing I want to do is annoy my friends online. However, Gabby, a former publicist and marketing genius, tells us not to be ashamed, that it is actually our responsibility to share our great work with the world.

Here you will find the second video in Gabby’s series where she discusses these three common blocks:

Gabrielle Bernstein has been named “a new thought leader” by Oprah Winfrey. She appears regularly as an expert on The Dr. Oz show and was named “a new role model” by the New York Times. Gabrielle is the New York Times best-selling author of the books May Cause Miracles and Miracles Now. Her other titles include Add More ~ing to Your Life and Spirit Junkie.



How Gabrielle Bernstein Taught Me to Own My Story

I’ve always been somewhat of a shy girl who, up until a few years ago, never would have described myself as a leader. However, I was a girl with a story. When I sat down to write a memoir, I realized that sharing my story helped heal myself, and those who read it, found it healing as well.

So I began to share all of my stories, even the silly ones. I soon started receiving emails from people saying they found my work not only entertaining, but helpful and inspiring too. Although I originally set out to be a female empowerment writer, men would write and tell me that my articles helped them to understand women better. Both men and women began confiding in me and asking for my advice. Sharing my stories gave me a sense of worth, purpose, and direction.

At this point, I’ve completed a life coaching class and am a graduate of best-selling author Gabrielle Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass, but before I received any credentials, I started out simply as a girl with a story. It was Gabrielle Bernstein who taught me that all you need to be a leader is “life cred.” Your life experience is your credibility.

Every single one of us has a transformational story to tell—a story that will heal and inspire others. Gabby says that not only are our stories our power, our stories are our gift to the world. So, tell your story–it just might change someone’s life!

I encourage you to click this link and watch this video of Gabby sharing her personal story of how she became a speaker, author, and public figure. This video will give you the confidence to step out as a leader and truly own your own voice.

Gabrielle Bernstein has been named “a new thought leader” by Oprah Winfrey. She appears regularly as an expert on The Dr. Oz show and was named “a new role model” by the New York Times. Gabrielle is the New York Times best-selling author of the books May Cause Miracles and Miracles Now. Her other titles include Add More ~ing to Your Life and Spirit Junkie.

When the Universe Calls

When the Universe Calls

When I first started blogging, a writer friend asked me if I was afraid I would ever run out of ideas. I actually never run out of ideas (I only run out of the ones that won’t get me into trouble). When I’m in writer mode, my wheels are always turning. The words are often rolling around in my head before I get a chance to sit down to write. As a result, I sometimes feel less present, less social, and more absent-minded in my every day life. This summer, I wanted to turn off the chatter in my brain and take a step away from my laptop and really live.

I’ll be the first to admit, I fell into some bad habits this summer. I went out too much. I drank too much. I left people crazy drunk messages. I lost my cell phone. I ate pizza at 2am. I was having fun, but I also felt guilty. Not only did I feel guilty about not taking better care of myself, I felt guilty for not being more productive.

Now I’m a mystical girl who believes everything is a sign. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe there are no chance encounters. I believe everyone is put in your path for a purpose. And I believe that angels speak through people.

So one night in June, while I was out and about, I met a Hollywood producer who had an idea for a project with one of my favorite authors and was wondering how to get in touch with her. I happened to do some volunteer work for her, so I gave the producer an email address where she could be reached. The next day, I received the most beautiful email from the author, a woman whom I admire tremendously. The thought crossed my mind, “Is this a sign? Is the universe telling me I should sit down and write something?” The thought was fleeting, and I kept partying.

About a month later, mid-July, I met a handsome surgeon at a restaurant. I was downing vodka sodas while he gave me an amazing shoulder massage. I don’t remember our conversation that night, but I highly doubt it was anything even remotely spiritual. To my surprise, when he came to pick me up for a dinner date a couple days later, he handed me a book on meditation. He probably thought, “This girl is so wild, I need to teach her how to meditate to calm her down.” While I hadn’t stopped meditating completely, my twenty-minute sessions had fallen to five minutes, sometimes twice a day; nonetheless, I took this gift as a call from the universe to step up my meditation game.

Signs often come in threes, and the angels often speak to me through my dates. A few weeks ago, a date took me to dinner at Cleo in Hollywood, where my girlfriend used to work. My date asked me if I had been there before. I told him, yes, I had, explaining that my girlfriend used to work at that restaurant. My very curious date wanted to know where she worked now. I told him it’s funny he should ask and explained that she is now a full time Akashic reader.

For anyone not familiar with the Akashic records, the records are a metaphysical library containing archives of each individual soul and its journey. Sounds a little out there, right? Well, after explaining this to my pretty straight-laced date, instead of thinking I was crazy, he told me that he thought it would be something I would enjoy and be really good at.

My girlfriend had actually invited me to take the course to become an Akashic practitioner. I was interested in the class, but I had already taken several certification programs in the last year and felt I needed to chill out on courses. However, the fact that out of all the restaurants in Los Angeles, he chose Cleo, where my friend had worked, I felt as though the universe was telling me I needed to take that class, which coincidentally started the following weekend.

After taking the Akashic practitioner course, I immediately felt re-aligned with my purpose. I was much less interested in partying and dating, and far more interested in practicing my Akashic readings. I felt like myself again; I felt creative; I felt focused; I felt inspired; I felt ready to get back to work.

Marianne Williamson always describes the universe similar to a navigation system. If you steer too far off course, the universe will always recalibrate. I might get a little wild at times. I might drink too much. I might have too many dates; but when the universe calls, I’ll always come home♥

“My ideas usually come not at my desk writing but in the midst of living.”~ Anais Nin

Leftover Fish

Leftover Fish

Over the summer, I went on a few dates with a guy who was physically my type. We always had a lot to talk about, and I found him to be a better communicator than maybe anyone I had ever dated. He was in great shape, waking up every morning at 5am to swim before he went to work. He had a beautiful home, just minutes away from my apartment in Beverly Hills, but was more of a casual type of guy. He always took me to restaurants where the food was good, but not exactly the hottest spots in town, which of course, was fine with me. However, the night of our fifth date, he texted that he was too tired to go out, but invited me over to watch a movie and eat some leftover fish.

LEFTOVER FISH??? Now, I’m not above a movie night or even leftovers, but leftover fish did not sound appealing to me at all. Seriously, is fish even good the next day? I told him I would come over to watch a movie, but that I would make something at home for dinner.

While I was getting ready, my mom called asking if I was going out that night. I told her my date was tired, so he invited me over for a movie and some leftover fish. My mom squealed, “Eeeew. Leftover fish???” Then she confirmed what I had been thinking myself, “This guy really isn’t trying to impress you.”

And Mom was right! If he wanted to stay in and have leftovers on our fifth date, I hate to imagine what would have happened once things settled in. And, sure, he was nice, but why would I want to stay in watching Netflix with a guy who doesn’t even bother to order me a fresh meal when other guys are inviting me to places like Nobu, Mastro’s, Brazil, and Tahiti?

When one of my single male clients asked what happened to the guy I had been seeing, I told my client about the leftover fish. I explained that it just didn’t seem like the guy was putting in much effort. My client said, “Well, yes, the leftover fish was a mistake. He shouldn’t have done that.” Then he added, “You’re the kind of girl who likes to be wined and dined, aren’t you?”

Why, yes, I am that kind of a girl!

That being said, if I really like a guy, I’m perfectly happy eating delivery. So, guys, let this be a lesson. Ordering take out is perfectly fine, but please don’t serve a girl leftovers. The only time leftovers are acceptable are if you ate the original meal with her in the first place.

And, ladies, always remember you are so much better than leftover fish♥